Lately I've been reflecting on my life a lot. On the decisions I've made, the paths that have brought me to where I am today, and the people who have been there beside me for the journey. And the ones who haven't.
It's funny how you get to a point one day, and you realize there are people in your life that haven't done you any good, and you've got to cut them loose. Maybe they've held you back and kept you from being who you're really supposed to be. Or maybe you've been holding on to them because they remind you of better times. That was my problem. But then one day, it hits you like a pile of bricks, and just like that, you realize you've got to let them go.
I like to think that every person who has been a part of my life has taught me something, has helped me become the person I am today. But not everyone is meant to be in your life forever. Some may be in your life for the blink of an eye, yet still make a lasting impression on you.
I was driving home from my mom's the other night, M was asleep in the backseat, and I suddenly started thinking about an old friend of mine. In the last few months we've grown farther and farther apart, and I started to get upset about the fact that we really don't talk that often anymore. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized how toxic the friendship had really been. In the beginning we were great friends, but as we grew older and we changed from kids into adults, our friendship became something that was a burden to the both of us. I didn't miss my friend, I missed the way things used to be. After I got home and put M to bed, I started catching up on my reader, and came across a post over on Marc and Angel Hack Life. It was all about letting go of toxic things in your life. As I read through the list, I realized there was a reason I came across that post. I felt like it was God's way of telling me that I was right, I needed to let go of my old friend. One line stuck with me the most, "The world changes when you change." I had changed, and so had everything around me. The time had come to evaluate my life and decide what could go forward with me, and what needed to be left behind.
I have a wonderful life now, right here in the present. I shouldn't miss things that are in the past. I should cut my ties and move on. It's just a lot easier said than done.