The other day my girl, KB, and I were having a discussion about our lives, and she mentioned that lately she'd been trying to live more in the present. This intrigued me, so I asked her to elaborate. She went on to say that, instead of worrying about the future, she's been "showing up" and being fully present in whatever life throws her way.
What she said has stuck with me the last few days, and I can't stop thinking about it.
Living in the moment, not worrying about the future, that seems like such a beautiful way to live life. I know as a mom, even though I want to, I don't really live in the moment. My mind is constantly skipping ahead to dinner, or bedtime, or what our schedule looks like for the rest of the week. In fact, I already have things on my calendar for June. And I know it's not just moms that do this. I bet most bloggers I know would say they're the same way.
I mean, I get it, our lives are busy. We have full time jobs (and yes, being a stay at home mom or wife is a full time job!), we have blogs, we have social lives, friends, and families, and it can get a bit hectic at times. If you're anything like me you're
a crazy person very
organized and like to write everything down. My mind races 90 miles a minute
with things to do. Laundry, dishes, work, playdates, grownup dates, my writing,
twitter, facebook, meal plans, the list goes on and on, and my mind never shuts
off. I hate this, because I'm so pre-occupied in my own head, I miss things
that are going on around me. And that's just the small things I think about,
don't even get me started on the big things that I worry constantly about. I'm
so stressed about the future, I can't enjoy my day to day life.
But, I've decided this has to stop. I need to be more like KB, I need to live more in the present. More of a day to day kind of living. I need to push aside my worrying, and focus on what is happening right now, right here, right in front of me. Now, I'm not saying I'm going to stop obsessing over things, I'm just saying that for me, there needs to be a designated time for it. Maybe in the evenings when M goes to bed, or even naptime. And, since I only get two nights a week to spend time with The Hubs, I'm going to try to be more present with him those nights. No blogging, no writing, no social media, no texting, and no stressing about the future. Just be with him. I hate to admit it, but lately our relationship has suffered because of our schedules. We're tired and stressed, and we end up arguing and pouting like 4 year olds on his nights off.
I plan on blogging in the eveings and scheduling for the next day. Or, ya know, just blogging at work. I don't really need to be "in the moment" at work, do I?
So, you're probably going to be seeing less of me during the day, unless M's asleep, while I try to live more in the "now". Because the present?
Is pretty darned sweet.
Do you spend too much time worrying about the future, or do you live in the moment?